Title: but I love you
Year: 2015-2019
Size: 18 x 24 inches
Technique: Acrylic

“Love is something I wanted to experience and cognize all my life. I consider myself lucky because I do not find it hard to love, but the source of the feeling feels like such a mystery. In our reality, we often experience that people need to be a certain way for us to love them, even with our children. It's always conditional, and we say:" I love him/her/them, but it's so hard/they are so mean/they are ungrateful, etc." It leaves the aftertaste of disappointment and frustration and a bit of victimhood. Once in India, listening to an enlightened monk, the answer came that the dream reality given to us by Gods is about "but I love you."  It means you are what you decide to be, but my decision to love is centered on me. Once I switched to this thinking, the clarity of love source started opening up more and more. Regardless of what you are, my love is there; my love does not depend on your exemplary behavior but on our oneness, on my decision to experience it. I am the one who has chosen to love. In this painting, I am expressing the moment that kind of love is being born. It's just the beginning, and you can not see it clearly yet. You have to come closer to the canvas to see a young couple. They are like a dream in what can be seen as a lady's head or a flower. But...their vision for their relationship has already been born, and the LOVE will open up.