Let the light in
Ellaya Yefymova

Let the light in



Title: Let the light in
Year: 2021
Size: 80x60 cm
Technique: Mixed media - oil & acrylic paints.

Sometimes we all need to wear some kind of a cocoon for self-defence. This painting is my self-portrait with my very personal story.
I was a victim of violence. In all its forms. But I only became strong after admitting my weakness. Until I admitted to myself that I was a victim, did not feel sorry for myself, did not hug, did not throw off the feeling of guilt and the fact that I was somehow wrong, bad, broken, I could not let the light in and heal. Move forward and build my life the way I want, and most importantly – the way I deserve. I stopped rejecting a person who was ready to share his light with me and who saw the light in me, despite all the defences from the past. He illuminated my path to finding my true self, lying through the thorny forest of past events, emotions and experiences.
The past is just the past. You can push on and let go of it. But there is no butterfly without a cocoon. Having built a cocoon out of self-pity, you can't escape it. And if someone offers help transforming pity into self-love, accept that help! Let yourself be a butterfly and fly!